too many words.February 15th, 2008 @ 4:43 pm
Hello everyone.:)
I don’t have a lot of time to put words here right now, but I wanted to follow-up my mother’s thoughts with a resounding, TRUE THAT.
I have to say that I feel the press of performance from the very first moment I am awake in the morning. My head and heart fill up with words before I even know that I’m not sleeping anymore. Resting starts to feel like digging a hole in the sand by the ocean- as soon as the tides of my life come in, every bit of peace that I have attained gets swept away and pressed down beneath the weight of the waves. This is when I realize that maybe peace is unattainable.
Maybe peace is something I have to sink my spiritual roots deep down into, and not something to add on top of all the anxieties in my life, like neosporin for the soul. Peace is an inside-out kind of phenomenon, where the Spirit of God inside of me, my Counselor, is ever convincing me over and over again that I do not need to be in control. This is so much harder than it seems.
Anyway. That’s about all I can afford to divulge at this moment- it is a busy weekend already (but full of good things!).
I love you all! Write words here. I want to see your thoughts.
always,
Annie
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said,
February 15, 2008 at 5:08 pm
At this risk of sounding like the mutual admiration society, I love this line
” Peace is an inside-out kind of phenomenon, where the Spirit of God inside of me, my Counselor, is ever convincing me over and over again that I do not need to be in control.”
So true, Annie. I think we can all relate to the morning tug of war of performance and resting in God. I know I can.
Nice thoughts…
Mom
Brandy
said,
February 21, 2008 at 4:02 pm
In “A Wrinkle in Time”, one of the characters says something I always found wonderful.
She says something like ” human life is like a sonnet. A sonnet has very strict rules to be met. It must be a certain number of lines and the right rhythm in order to be named a sonnet, but inside those boundaries, the author has the freedom to make of it whatever he/she wishes. And so it is with us. God gave us boundaries, but he also gave us the freedom to fill up our lives as we wish.”
That is far from an exact quote, but it gets the point across. We feel so confined by this world sometimes, what with money limits and time constraints and everything else, I imagine that we are taking our lives and changing them from beautiful poetry into a suffocating cage. I think what I’m trying to say is that peace is what God envisioned for us. The boundaries of mortality wouldn’t seem like limits at all if we didn’t screw up that peace by filling up our lives with unnecessary craziness or by trying to control every facet of our lives. I feel like I’m rambling cause I can’t convey my thoughts right! It makes sense in my head but not in my words! (sigh) Anyway, I guess it falls to how you look at things. If you think of 10 mins of rest as just another time constraint, just one more thing you have to do, you’re only making you’re cage smaller. But if you see it as was intended, as a means of escape from the madness, a time to meet with your Creator and perhaps sort out what He has planned for you and what you may have been trying to take out of His hands….maybe you’ll find that there’s more poetry in your life than you realized. And maybe, instead of feeling like theres just one more thing to do, you’ll feel there’s something to look forward to.