Hiya Everyone!

I know this is for us to share thoughts and stories with each other and I had this rolling in my head for a bit. I feel I need to share it, but please excuse me if I ramble!

Recently, I’ve been seeing a lot of drifters in my area. I don’t know if they’re all passing through at the same time, or I just didn’t want to see them before…so I didn’t. I try and follow the whole “if someone asks, give” idea, but I’ve really been wanting to help these people I see on the street. At first, I had to find the right balance between being helpful and being safe. And then, whenever I would go to the place I had last seen someone I thought I might reach (cause they’d been there a few days), they were gone. The last time this happened, I saw a younger guy with the “will work for food” sign, freezing near a blockbuster as I passed. I wanted to give him money, but my husband warned it better to give food, incase there were drug issues. Made sense. We continued with our day of going to the golf range. I had very little fun. He stayed on my mind. The next day was Sunday, I thought, “I’ll go back after church and buy some things for him.” When I get home, there was feeding the baby and eating lunch and Noah’s nap time, and finally I went out to where he had been. He wasn’t there. I was struck with a very clear thought. I’m trying to do God’s will, but I’m trying to make it convenient for myself. I felt like my insides had been scooped out. How very obvious. How very like me to take something as good as caring for those in need and twisting it so it fits my schedule.

I know we’ve been talking about walls lately. I feel like a couple of mine are crumbling that I wasn’t even aware that I had. Perhaps I was blocking out those who needed help because I didn’t have time for them. I see them now. And with God’s help, I’ll learn how to go when he sends me and not wait for my own convenience.

Thank you to everyone at the meeting on Monday. Katie’s worship music, the chance to sing and dance with friends, everything helped to ease my mental and physical burdens. You guys are like an Anti-enemy barrier and it rocks!!! Talk about Praise frightening the enemy!!!

Love you all!

Brandy